A year.

Sunrises. Sunsets. A year. Measured by hours, minutes. Seasons. Passing of dear ones. Old rose leaves release their memories. New bubbles of still, fragile light.

What did you take from me, what did I learn from you.

"And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance"

- Tony Arata

ghosts...

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tomorrow shimmers pale
in the distance but

pain hazes red
yesterday's memories.

the dead find it easy to forget,
it is the living who must bear burden of proof.

words fade and

breathing is difficult.

April 2003

But I "still have not learnt to let go with the heart".
Sometimes we hold on to pain. Perhaps because it has come to define who we are. But still. Comes a time when we must let go.

A song for a song...

Almost love

hey, stranger,
your voice dissolves the years.
I remember
the clean smell of you and
the whiteness of your soul.
you were sunshine
and the taste of rain.

And I know, you know
for a lifetime and maybe,
a day,
you'll seek me in your memories
i'll carry you in my bones.
we were, this was
almost,
almost love.

we paid the bloodprice for honesty
flew on a fairytale built on pain.
but not all endings
were birthed in beginnings,
and we have moved on,
just the same.
not the same.

but comes some nights like these,
when the memory of sunshine
is all that keeps me together.
then
hey, stranger,
seek me in your memories,
carry me in your bones.
we were, this was,
almost,
almost love,
love.

Tom.
Thanks for giving me a song.
Jul 2006

fireflies

Moments stand ablaze
with siren possibilities
as i held you,
some wildling thing
poised for flight
yet
unwilling to leave,

caught,
in this slowdance of light,
and sleeping

childhood memories.


Feb 2003

Anniversaries

Mel, 2001

remembering
the infinitesimal heartbreak
of each passing dawn when
you asked for morphine and
i carried our pain

the glimmering sadness
of stillborn days watching
mute
our footprints

slowly wash

away.


Jan 2003

always missed & loved.